moved here! hopefully this time it works. i am such a goner with IT stuff.

16Jun
moved. ask me where.

15May

tortoise. i like. =)

09May
no fast food
no carbo
no sugar

less oil

MORE MORE MORE FRUITS!
goodness I have put on FIVE FREAKING KILOGRAMS. i feel like i need to go for lipo. any sponsors? shucks i feel so freaking UNHEALTHY. AHHHHH!!!!!

07May
heyy babes of 2903, I want to have a chalet in the month of July, because that's when almost everyoine is free and still in sg. I HOPE.. anyway the problem is that i intended to have a chalet in Sentosa, but apparently it is really puny like max only 3 pax which is definitely not enough! and other than that i really have no idea where else can i book!! suggestions please!! and please tell me when you guys can make it?? preferrably weekdays!! you should know why.. haha.. ya.. do msg me ya?? we NEED a gathering really soonnn!

hey xtina, a post specially for you!!! now i understand how geri feels when she cant tag. haha.. i cant tag your bloggy!
anyway i just want to apologise for not turning up for the chalet and i really really hopw that you understand the fact that it wasnt because i DIDNT want to go but because of some unforeseen circumstances that i coulnt make it.. sorriesss.. and altho i am attached, i have to agree with you on your latest post cos it's heyhey!! TRUE!! guys. yiew... oopsy...

27Apr
working in the corporate world is definitely not as easy as one thinks. right now i am just a temp staff. someone so insignificant that i can fade into a corner and disappear and no one will notice! but here i am in my little corner. WATCHING.
watching and observing is currently my fave past time. (other than eating OF COURSE) it's indeed interesting yet scary to see others being so two-faced. back in secondary school, everyone hates a two-faced freako. if you have that mentality in this world, the number of people which you will like, will definitely be next to zero.
the chinese saying: xiao li chang dao (correct me if i'm wrong) is just too true. they smile and bitch WITH you. they are your BEST FRIENDS. they LISTEN to you. give you EVERYTHING. but BEHIND you, they whip out their daggers and stab, STAB, STAB!! it's so sad to see but it's happening!!! *shrieks in fear
people lunch with their bosses and managers for just one motive. people open the doors for just one reason. people hold the lifts for just one cause. and yes you guessed it! it's to sar-ka (alright babes, the 'people' AINT referring to EVERYONE but i guess, most. the others do all these because they are polite. of cos. like ME! *curtsey i'm trying to be careful with my words!! *heh)
aint it just too scary? suddenly the school seems such a perfect place!
imagine.......

in four years time, most of us will be in the working world. we HAVE to watch what we say and what we do. We will definitely want to prove ourselves yet at the same time afraid that we might step on other's toes. If we get promoted, there will suddenly be many green-ey'd monsters *raH! They'll start to watch our every move and bitch behind our backs and we'll start to have backaches cos we're constantly being stabbed *excuse the lame-ness. i allow eyes to be rolled.* As we move up the corporate ladder, we'll have lesser and lesser and lesser friends (in the same co.). that means lesser gossips heard due to fewer gossip partners, fewer lunch and tea-break ka-kis...Hownowbrowncow??
*sigh
office politics, either you stay clear or play it well.

i think i'm incoherent again.
*shootme

21-22Apr
the more i hear the more i fear. been hearing loads about the horrors of blogging. my mum's colleague's daughter was apparently called up for an interview for some course and during the mist of the interview they actually... okok..cont soon..
they actually told her that they found her blogg and that she used vulgarities!! ohmymama.
maybe you think that a pw might help. but NO. it doesnt because some of us have meanie moos as friends.
a PSC scholar actually wrote some racist remarks on his PASSWORD secured blogg and volah! his meanie moo friend sabo-ed him and it was out in the press. after it was out, people actually hacked his pw to read his blog(yes, despos). the public actally wanted the govt to withdraw his scholarship.

*ponders

this cyber world is indeed a scary place to mess around with. as it says. www= World Wide Web. world wide. yikes.
then why are there still so many bloggers?
i guess...
i actually had views on this but ya you guessed it. being me, i'm too lazy to pen them down might just have the urge to blog it someday.. till then blog with care. the four lettered word might just cause you an interview or a scholarship. yikes. i'm incoherent. someone save me.

talking about interviews and scholarships brings me back to my uni application. no calls no letters, my place of interest for the next week will be by my mail box. Mr postman. please give me ma letter(if there's even one). I need reasssurance.. i'm fretting as usual. hopefully it's for nothing.. hopefully.. argh. someone talk some sense into my empty head. eveyone has somewhere to go. everyone EXCEPT ME. shucks.

16Apr
Now that you have become a Star in our skies, I will say a prayer for you every night. Thanks for fighting ah gong. You're my hero. A hero who will live in my heart until the day i shine beside you. I Love You so much. Goodbye.

15Apr.
Thanks to each and everyone of my babes who went that extra mile to put that smile on my face. Yes, those encouraging words helped. I have to be strong for my grandpa to be strong. It's hard. Seeing him in pain hurts me so bad. I wish for a miracle. Just one. It's almost impossible I know. I just hope for the best and if he goes, I pray he goes peacefully. Good Lord, please take him in Your hands.
Feeling bad about not turning up for my class chalet. I was looking fwd to seeing you guys again. Sadly, things didnt turn out they way I wish it did. My apologies and I promise a bbq soon ya..
I really need a break. Waking up at 6 daily and being totally drained by 5pm from doing nothing is seriously not my ideal lifestyle. I feel wasted. I need to spend more time with myself. I want to sip latte and soak up the sun. I need a good work out and maintain my social life. I need to do so many things. But right now, i guess i just have to be strong. I need to get thru this crucial period. I hope I survive.

10Apr
my grandpapa's in the ICU. he's breathless.
my hammy's gone. i let him out in my balcony for a run and my dad syas that he's most prob the dinner for a crow or two.
nick's back in camp and i have work tml.
how bad can one's day get? i am sad. truly i am. i am trying to stay strong and fighting back the tears. i hope my days ahead can only get better. i want my grandpapa well and my hammy back and next sat to come real soon. *sobs

10Apr
love ma yday!! met up with my babes and we had a hellova time! too bad ven, you missed it all! since money's more impt, i shall kick your arse soon!
we ate the most anyone could ever eat and went bonkers after the truckload of food. 2 plates of stingray, 6 wings, carrot cake, fried oyster, hokkien mee, tung yuan, grass jelly, sugar cane and two coconuts surely made us look 5 months pregnant! ohmymama. =]
i enjoyed the food, the soursop seed spitting competition and of cos the company of my two angels! we gotta feast more often ya.
sheryl ma laogong, i loove the earrings!! *huggs we gotta feast more often ya? gonna miss you two muchly after aug. sigh. will sing 'leaving on a jet plane' and promise not to cry. just remember that come what may, i'll always be here for you. *muacks
true friends never part, maybe in distance, but never at heart.

3Apr
well well. it's gone.
thanks for the wonderful night ma dear geri, xtina and joan!! cant wait for the chalet!!

8MAR
i miss S V L. we'll catch up soon alright? i love you and you know that. *huggs 2903! i missed that outing!!! will organise another one sooon... and hope everyone can make it! anyway, people!! MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING! HEEELLLOOOOO... 26more days to gooo... yayness!!! i'm still wondering if i should have a chalet! haha.. should i???

28Feb
SHIIITTT!!!! the O level results have been released and.. i'll be such a goner in a week's time!!!! *yikess!!! i'm so gonna cry until i dehydrate or something and then i'll look like a prune in my coffin with an A3 paper crushed in my hand. ohmy googoo.. how i wish i can get my results online.. so i dont have to see the disappointed look on my teachers' faces, not like they expect anything out of me.. and dont have to go thru the stats which says 99% has gotten an A and yes, i am that ONE PERCENT. and most of all i dont have to see those freaks who scored 3As jumping around and showing off their results while i fade into a corner!!!! ohmymama.. this is the worst ordeal i have to go through.

27th Feb
RESULTS. this is probably the one word i seriously abhore. i'm in a sort of depression. i just cant get it out of my head!! it just keeps ringing in my head!!!!! *freaks everytime i whine to someone, he/she will just say: dont worry man! you'll do well!! i know they mean well.. but that's the only politically correct thing they can say!! and that's also what everyone tells everyone else! i'm going bonkers at this rate. sigh.. i know no one can help me.. and i seriously have no idea what i'm posting.. my thoughts are all over the place and i'm in the dumps. i just really hope that things will go well for everyone.. everyone including me.. *sobssss xtina, i'll send you the pics sooooonnn...

24th FEB
i'm stuck at home and down with flu + fever+ cough + sore throat + headache and the weather seem to make everything worse. *sigh. i'm not feeling better at the thought that the results are gonna be released soon. i know i realised this a little too late but still!! just one more week to my dooms day and yes i better drink more water to store up on the amount of tears i's have to cry on that day. i really dont know what to do. to dwell on something like that is seriously not a very wise thing to do. but to ignore it totally is IMPOSSIBLE! i still keep thinking of that dream i had. *dream: i walked passed this medicinal hall and the shopkeeper shouted real rudely 'OEI!!' then he roughly shove this A3 size paper at me and walked away. I unrolled the paper and to my disgust, it was my cert. ohmymama. my results: A C D. goodness gracious. i cried like crazy!!! and guess what made this the nightmare of nightmares. this A3 size paper had the words: 'GENERAL PAPER: F9' splashed across the top and it was in bold, red and probably font 50. i almost fainted and died of shock.* what am i supposed to do? what if this dream becomes reality? then i will be doomed! for the rest of my life! my goodness!! and almost everyday, crew will come to see me regarding their leave and they will ask how old am i and what i'm planning to do. i really have no answer to that question because i don't even know where will my fututre lead me to! (but if i marry a rich guy, that's another story. hah.). sigh. i feel like a lost sheep. i wish this big black endless hole wilkl swollow me up and just let me fall fall falll..... *sigh.. back to sneezing and coughing. i better get myself cured before another disaster befalls on me.

21st FEB
hey everybody!! i just found this new offer!! some budget airling, $180 for a two way tix to HK!! how?? anyone interested?? i want to go leh... but must book by end of this week and must travel before 27th MAY.. or alternatively, let's go bintan!!! or.. we can just chill at a resort at Sentosa!! comments please!! i really need a break...

14FEB
i was so looking forward to quack's house visit. i wanted to see all of you again, and i wanted to have steamboat dinner with everyone. i thought somehow we decided on this coming saturday and almost everyone (i think) was fine with it. mel called on thurs morning. asked if i am free on sat. so i ssaid no cos i was expecting pple. mel didnt mention it was quack's outing. (for that i'm still a little pissed.) then no one ask or even msg me anything about the outing until i read joan's blog yday night. i blew. i was furious. i'm sorry i forgot mel called. but couldnt anyone just drop a msg to confirm? nvm. it';s alright. i'm over it. i'm sorry to mel, geri and joan for all the trouble i caused.. truly. right now. i'm pissed. why. good question. how did crystal come into the picture? i thought xtina was the organiser? why did crystal take over withoug xtina even knowing? ok fine she took over. after controlling us (as a CG REP FOR 2 YEARS) she STILL feels the need to take over. then ok. i have nothing to say. but why when you take over, you have ABSOLUTELY NO SENSE OF RESPONSIBILITY AND RESPECT TO US, AND XTINA? you didnt even inform us PERSONALLY THAT THINGS CHANGED! you DIDNT EVEN CARED IF WE COULD GO. if you want a leadership role by all means. CREATE A NETWORK AND ASK EVERYONE TO CONTACT EVERYONE ELSE AND LEAVE NO ONE OUT! YOU EXPECT JOAN TO DO EVERYTHING FOR YOU? YOU CREATE THIS MESS AND EXPECT JOAN TO CLEAR IT UP AND YOU HAPPILY ENJOYING THE COMPANY OF OUR DEAR QUACK! crap.

13th FEB
i'm dateless tomorrow. anyone wants me?

8th Feb
There's nothing much to update about my life i guess.. stoning in front of the computer on a daily basis seems to be part of what i am paid for.
my love life is bumby.. lots of misunderstandings and lots of doubts.. trust seems to be the most difficult thing to do at this point in time.. melfy, i'm so envious! you're still so in love.. maybe i'm losing it.. it's too tiring.. it's been weeks and yet i'm still asking myself.. should i stay, should i go. ='( *sigh.
today's newyear's eve.. wish that everyone of you will get a truckload of hongbaos and eat your way into the rooster year!! i shall be a less troubled girl for this week at least.. need to relax! last but not least, i just want to shout out to my dears in 2903.. miss you guys lots.. sigh.. we need a class gathering soon! all the girlie talks and food!! meet up soon kaes?

11th jan
i dont really know how to use this server man.. it's weird! haha.. anyways, i'm getting used to the days without him though i really look forward to the end of the day when he will call!! yay!! class outing ar.. i want too!! but everyone's working right? then got different working days and times.. how?? argh.. bytheway, i really wana thank all of you! thank you so much for being here for me!! *huggs

he just called!!! whee!!! i'm happy! although the conversation was only a min long, i guess it eased my mind a little! =] anyhus, does anyone out there have really simple but yummy western food recipes? i want i want!! =]

8Jan
have decided to change my blog cos i simply cant blog with blogspot. *screams it's the 8th. he's in tekong. yikes. i really miss him. i feel as though i've lost a part of myself. and guess what. i didn't even get to go for his swearing in parade bacause his granny took my place! *argh!! *sigh. guess i've just gotta work work work and try to keep myself busy so that saturday seems nearer than it is supposed to be. hari raya quick come!! went for the NTU talk today.. met up with quite a few of my friends!! i'm considering business or teaching! haha.. but i cant even picture myself standing infront of a class and trying to keep those kids quiet!! *freaks. nothing much to update. am feeling quite lost.. shall just sit and look forward to his call later in the night! =)